Wednesday, December 9, 2009

i love seeing a new subscriber, everyday i get one more!

always if your staying tuned for my most recent diet i have been doing quite well.
everymorning i drag myself to the gym and get about two to three hours of cardio each day,
i ahve noticing small improvements around my waist and hips which is always good. im not
far from content with how i look. i still have about 15 pounds to go till im content and not hating myself, but 20 pounds away from my ultimate goal!
yesterday was bad though. :(
i went to the gym in the morning like usually and burned a total of 350 calories, (i always underestimate what the machine says.) so i was feeling good about myself that i didn't eat either until about one (which is normal) then i decided it was my one soup a day time. i ate the soup but i also suplurged on eating an applesauce with a little bit of low calorie cocoa powder, which was said to stop my chocolate craving without the fat. so later that dayi go to weigh myself expecting at least a small reduction but I GAINED A POUND!
i know its normal for your weight to fluctuate during the day, but i was working really hard and i didn't eat anything i hate backtracking during a weight loss. so i went again to the gym for another three hours, burning about 500 calories during that visist.
good news: i lost two pounds, im back on track.
it was raining today so i slept in, since i did sleep in. i have decided no food. i do not want another
episode like yesterday.
i hope ana is proud of me.!

stay strong ladies.

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the feeling is mutual.

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Prefection Found

-I want to be so thin, light, airy, that when the light hits me, I don't leave a shadow behind.
-when I walk across the snow I will not leave so much as one footprint
-I can dance between the raindrops in a downpour.
-And you're my obsession. I love you too the bones.
-I want to be light enough so a helium balloon could lift me and carry me to the clouds.
-I want to be as light as a feather and tumble
-Let your bones define the beauty of your body.
-Empty is pure. Starving is pure.
-I can get thinner. I can cut it all off. I can wear low slung Levi's and crop tops and long straight dresses like willowy models, and I will grasp with the breathlessness of being airborne. I can fly and be free. I never realized how easy it was.
-Ana, my friend, my companion. -Starve my pain away. Make me beautiful. Make everything ok. Turn my problems into bones. Crush them up. Gather the remains. Blow away the dust.
-Anyone can have "inner beauty" but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.
-Thin has a taste all its own.
-Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
-Don't suffer from anorexia and bulimia. Enjoy every minute of it!
-People will remember you as Beautiful
-You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight dragging you down.
-You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
-Only thin people are graceful.
-You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.
-It's not like beauty will make you especially interesting, but it will help people to get interested in your soul. -Within me lies a treasure hunt. When I lose I win.
-Lose everything and what is real will still remain.
-One day I will be thin enough. Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh. Just the pure clear shape of me, bones. That is what we all are, what we're made up of and everything else is just storage, deposit, waste. Strip it away, use it up.
-I've freed myself from this compulsion of eating. When I wake, I am empty, light-headed. I love to stay this way, free and pure, light on my feet, traveling as a feather.
-We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need. -Junk food is cheap but thin is priceless.
-Blessed are the starving, for they shall teach us not to want.
-Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find peace tonight.

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goal measurements:
upper arm-8.5

my measurements(may24):

red=met goal