Monday, May 24, 2010

its tuesday and its beautiful out
okay so heres how my day is supposed to go:
go for a run (25 mintes)
2 glasses of water
walk to work
only 3 glasses of water/tea and 1 cup of coffee
walk home from work
go to the crafts store to buy something entertaining and time consuming
come home and start the book that has been on my night stand for about 1 month
read all night while only having one cup of green tea

later i'll post my update and what actually gets done.
im a planner, i need to know what's going on and what i'm supposed to do.
otherwise i become lost, i get screwy and always get backed up.
im sure many anas feel this way. this is why i hate going out. you never know what will happen and its hard to plan for the unexpectable.
my brother is coming over this weekend and i miss that shithead. im just anticipating our cycle to repeat itself, stay tuned for the danger ahead!


vst_h said...

My Tuesday is almost over. I will start this attempted juice fast tomorrow. Good luck!

vst_h said...

PS. If I haven't already said this, you have INCREDIBLY AWESOME taste in music!

the feeling is mutual.

for your ears only

Prefection Found

-I want to be so thin, light, airy, that when the light hits me, I don't leave a shadow behind.
-when I walk across the snow I will not leave so much as one footprint
-I can dance between the raindrops in a downpour.
-And you're my obsession. I love you too the bones.
-I want to be light enough so a helium balloon could lift me and carry me to the clouds.
-I want to be as light as a feather and tumble
-Let your bones define the beauty of your body.
-Empty is pure. Starving is pure.
-I can get thinner. I can cut it all off. I can wear low slung Levi's and crop tops and long straight dresses like willowy models, and I will grasp with the breathlessness of being airborne. I can fly and be free. I never realized how easy it was.
-Ana, my friend, my companion. -Starve my pain away. Make me beautiful. Make everything ok. Turn my problems into bones. Crush them up. Gather the remains. Blow away the dust.
-Anyone can have "inner beauty" but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.
-Thin has a taste all its own.
-Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
-Don't suffer from anorexia and bulimia. Enjoy every minute of it!
-People will remember you as Beautiful
-You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight dragging you down.
-You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
-Only thin people are graceful.
-You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.
-It's not like beauty will make you especially interesting, but it will help people to get interested in your soul. -Within me lies a treasure hunt. When I lose I win.
-Lose everything and what is real will still remain.
-One day I will be thin enough. Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh. Just the pure clear shape of me, bones. That is what we all are, what we're made up of and everything else is just storage, deposit, waste. Strip it away, use it up.
-I've freed myself from this compulsion of eating. When I wake, I am empty, light-headed. I love to stay this way, free and pure, light on my feet, traveling as a feather.
-We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need. -Junk food is cheap but thin is priceless.
-Blessed are the starving, for they shall teach us not to want.
-Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find peace tonight.

que evil music

goal measurements:
upper arm-8.5

my measurements(may24):

red=met goal