my weight is 126
and its a fresh start.
i will reach 110 by June
thats 16 pounds
i think everyday i will post my thinspo of the day
it will keep my balanced.
i vow not to binge in this time.
it will be hard.
but i owe it to myself to finally acquire some
self- confidence and acceptance.
i cant say it enough
i want to be thin.
but its not something thats just handed to people
its a mountain that must be climbed.
its difficult to write from the heart here.
i mean with my network being from anas themselves
i feel like its becomes more of a battle than a support group.
i think about how to say things to reach my audience.
but most of the time i come out saying pitiful things.
but i am what i am
im not going to type to an audience anymore.
this is more of a journal, like i said from the beginning.
i write for me.
but if you do find yourself involved in my blog.
i will think of you as my little anas on my shoulders
helping me along in my quest.
thanks to you who comment and lead me towards my mountain.
as for my day so far, its been dreadful.
not just the weather. i allowed myself a bowl of cereal and 1/2 a protein shake.
thats about it for today, im hitting the gym in a couple of hours
my goals for this new year
burn 600 or more each day
be more friendly and open
in turn find a true friend
work hard in school
lose weight, (mostly the weight of your bad attitude)
dont lose yourself in the process.
one day at a time.