okay i gave myself a "clean" break,
really my stomach is just freaking me out, its making noises and pains i haven't ever had.
plus i got a stroke of confidence when i went to the health food store.
i was checking out and someone asked me what i do to stay so small.
i told them its natural, (i wish, really i throw up after each meal and fast for days)
what a lair.
im going to ease myself on fruit tonight.
i feel like a mess. all i want is a heavenly piece of chocolate. i dont care what kind.
but this is just a craving. please oh please dont give into the craving!
its early, but my day has been alright.
i was reading a few ana blogs this morning and i was becoming chocked up.
to be honest its a shame we go through all this bullshit, but its worth it...right?
it has to be, i need to be thin.