Friday, January 29, 2010

feeling good.

well so far today i had one orange and its 12:30.

today I have decided for my body that I am only going to eat

raw fruits and vegetables.

to prepare my body for the six-seven day fast ahead of me.

this will ease my body into it and not lead to a shock to my metabolism.

i read this somewhere and i hope it proves useful.

anyway, my brother is in town, he lives upstate with my mother and their Yorkie.

he has been doing quite a number and eating all our junk food!

this is very exciting. nothing to be tempted with.

bonus round: i also get to cook which i love, just not the eating part.

i don't think i disclosed that i don't have a boyfriend.

and don't want one right now, as a matter of fact.

I'm quite content with just being independent and alone.

[i don't think you caught the sarcasm.]

But i really do think the prefect word to describe me right now is content.

not happy, but satisfied.

my sisters wedding is in June and when i was measured for my dress i was a size 2.

i tired on the dress in November and it fit, but a little more snug than i would like.

So My goal is to at least be a little under a size 2, so that the dress needs to be taken in.

its positively awful. Its a puke green and a mermaid which looks dreadful on my body.

it looks as if i was bond in my dress and then someone added rouging.

Please HELP!. what makes the bride think she can dress down her bridal party, to look

like chums. because that is what i look like, fish bait.


any good tips to keeping yourself distracted?

okay anas,

see ya'll later!

No comments:

the feeling is mutual.

for your ears only

Prefection Found

-I want to be so thin, light, airy, that when the light hits me, I don't leave a shadow behind.
-when I walk across the snow I will not leave so much as one footprint
-I can dance between the raindrops in a downpour.
-And you're my obsession. I love you too the bones.
-I want to be light enough so a helium balloon could lift me and carry me to the clouds.
-I want to be as light as a feather and tumble
-Let your bones define the beauty of your body.
-Empty is pure. Starving is pure.
-I can get thinner. I can cut it all off. I can wear low slung Levi's and crop tops and long straight dresses like willowy models, and I will grasp with the breathlessness of being airborne. I can fly and be free. I never realized how easy it was.
-Ana, my friend, my companion. -Starve my pain away. Make me beautiful. Make everything ok. Turn my problems into bones. Crush them up. Gather the remains. Blow away the dust.
-Anyone can have "inner beauty" but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.
-Thin has a taste all its own.
-Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
-Don't suffer from anorexia and bulimia. Enjoy every minute of it!
-People will remember you as Beautiful
-You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight dragging you down.
-You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
-Only thin people are graceful.
-You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.
-It's not like beauty will make you especially interesting, but it will help people to get interested in your soul. -Within me lies a treasure hunt. When I lose I win.
-Lose everything and what is real will still remain.
-One day I will be thin enough. Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh. Just the pure clear shape of me, bones. That is what we all are, what we're made up of and everything else is just storage, deposit, waste. Strip it away, use it up.
-I've freed myself from this compulsion of eating. When I wake, I am empty, light-headed. I love to stay this way, free and pure, light on my feet, traveling as a feather.
-We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need. -Junk food is cheap but thin is priceless.
-Blessed are the starving, for they shall teach us not to want.
-Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find peace tonight.

que evil music

goal measurements:
upper arm-8.5

my measurements(may24):

red=met goal