Sunday, November 22, 2009

The beginning of a beautiful friendship.

The name is Coraline.
I have been a vegetarian/dairy free for two years and mia on and off since 8th grade. I have made a decision to become ana only a few hours ago, ( i know i know easy to say when you just binged and have a discustingly full stomach) but i am serious! i have put it off for too long and have only ruined my body in the process.
I have made the desicion that the only way to seriously rid myself of these ugly pounds is to make a commitment and write to strangers about my daily progress and faults. i could only hope that i recieve support and thinspirational stories and people who disagree keep their opinions to themselves.

i really need this change, i believe it is the only way i can take back control of my life.





INtake:
breakfast-
hot
cereal: 140 cal
1tsp honey: 60 cal
coffee:10 cal
lunch-
water:0cal
dinner-
water:0cal


(where it all went wrong,
8:00pm)


7 mini chocolate chip
cookies:
320cal
1cup vanilla frozen
yogurt:
130cal
1tsp peanut butter:80cals

OUTtake:
walked my dog (45min)
yoga
(60min)




with more hope tomorrow,
coraline
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the feeling is mutual.

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Prefection Found

-I want to be so thin, light, airy, that when the light hits me, I don't leave a shadow behind.
-when I walk across the snow I will not leave so much as one footprint
-I can dance between the raindrops in a downpour.
-And you're my obsession. I love you too the bones.
-I want to be light enough so a helium balloon could lift me and carry me to the clouds.
-I want to be as light as a feather and tumble
-Let your bones define the beauty of your body.
-Empty is pure. Starving is pure.
-I can get thinner. I can cut it all off. I can wear low slung Levi's and crop tops and long straight dresses like willowy models, and I will grasp with the breathlessness of being airborne. I can fly and be free. I never realized how easy it was.
-Ana, my friend, my companion. -Starve my pain away. Make me beautiful. Make everything ok. Turn my problems into bones. Crush them up. Gather the remains. Blow away the dust.
-Anyone can have "inner beauty" but few can earn real beauty, inside as well as out.
-Thin has a taste all its own.
-Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
-Don't suffer from anorexia and bulimia. Enjoy every minute of it!
-People will remember you as Beautiful
-You'll be able to run faster without all that extra weight dragging you down.
-You will be able to see your beautiful, beautiful bones.
-Only thin people are graceful.
-You'll be able to move as quietly and skillfully as a spider.
-It's not like beauty will make you especially interesting, but it will help people to get interested in your soul. -Within me lies a treasure hunt. When I lose I win.
-Lose everything and what is real will still remain.
-One day I will be thin enough. Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh. Just the pure clear shape of me, bones. That is what we all are, what we're made up of and everything else is just storage, deposit, waste. Strip it away, use it up.
-I've freed myself from this compulsion of eating. When I wake, I am empty, light-headed. I love to stay this way, free and pure, light on my feet, traveling as a feather.
-We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need. -Junk food is cheap but thin is priceless.
-Blessed are the starving, for they shall teach us not to want.
-Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find peace tonight.

que evil music

goal measurements:
upper arm-8.5
forearm-8
wrist-5.5
bust-30
waist-25
ribcage-27
hips-33
thigh-16.5
calf-13

my measurements(may24):
upperarm-11
forearm-9
wrist-5.8
bust-32.5
ribcage-28.5
waist-26.5
hips-38.5
thigh-22
calf-14

red=met goal