heres to you!

perfect summer weather today

ate 900 calories and still feel like im harvesting a watermelon in my stomach.

i dont know what the hell im going to do in the summer

if i still look like this.

i dont know

i have been working out and eating under 1000 each day(exception of couple)

for about a month

and im not losing or gaining.

im still cubby and now where near what i should

maybe im not counting right

i feel gross

my legs touch as i walk

and that makes me want to throw up

maybe i should.

i don't know if this happens to all mias.

but when i get on a kick of throwing up a lot

i get little veins close to the corners of my eyes.

its because i put a lot of strain on my muscles and blood vessels

eh, its easy to cover up. :/

so, i think i have a new found crush.

but its different.

its actually a girl.

i don't know if this is just a bi-curious kind of thing

but to me, attraction is attraction.

whether that be to a boy of girl.

anyway, she is so beautiful

and she makes me laugh, and we mesh so well.

like puzzle pieces

but i wouldn't even know how to approach anyone i like.

plus i don't think she knows i like her, or girls for that matter.

I'm am a little confused about the matter.

and i don't see any reason why she would be attracted to me.

guess I'm just a downer.

maybe i have a new goal....

crushes always help inspire you to a better body.

gettin some green tea then write an essay. woho

heres to all the people who movitate us to better bodies!