i feel like a a piece of garbage. so this fast thing, frist day a big beautiful sucess!
second day i want throw myself in a washing machine. so about the dramatic effect.

i was doing the basic run in the morning have my water with lemon and go to school thing then all of
a sudden my sister calls with news of my uncle in the hospital, then my grandmother
is following me around the house asking me a thousand questions about when im going
eat something and then i have to pick up my sister from school plus the dog from the groomers
then school for five hours.
everything all happened at once and it got the best of me and my empty stomach.
i was thinking the whole time, just go lay down or have some apple cider vinegar to
stop your hunger, drink some water.
THEN: out of no where the stupidest thought
occured. Coraline, dont you want to be normal? have a normal meal? eat like a normal
person? you wont be so stressed if you have something to eat.
okay something small i said, something small happened to be an apple, some caulitflower with hummes, chocolate milk, a raw revolution bar, soy milk, chewy bar with peanut butter, and to top it all off my head in the toliet bowl.

can someone please stop the maddness occuring in my head!
i know i didn't get it all out and i plan on going for a run after school and a self loathing in front of the mirror so i dont eat anything tonight.
i feel like a failure and i whimp that i can't take control of my emotions.
i should subscribe to an emotional eating website rather than a pro ana one. I dont deserve to call myself an ana.

okay enough, i have to pull myself together at least for the next few days, i was recomended a diet called "the scared heart" and im going to try it out. claims you can lose up to ten pounds in a week. ten pounds of my bad habit hopfully.

beginning to starve on-
Coraline